Wow, It``s been awhile since I updated. But to be fair, there has been a lot going on.  First, I had alot of fun on the holiday, but we were late for the boat so we had to wait like three hours for the next one. And not only that but there was a big freaking storm and not to mention that it was pitch dark, so we had to stop and sleep in the car. Which let me tell is very hard to do, when you are four people in a small car. And when we finally came home, I crashed on my bed and slept for like two days.

Then a few days later when everything was unpacked, washed and I didnt  feel like a freaking zombie anymore. What happens? My laptop crashes, and everything disapears and it makes a sound everytime I try to turn it on (no pun intended). So we had to turn it in so that they could fix it. About a month later, there was still no laptop and I was slowly going insane, not to mention dying of boredom. I mean for crying out loud, I had to read books, BOOKS...that`s just wrong.  Finally it just took too long so I just got a new laptop. But then of course the old laptop was ready the next day. So I have the new laptop and dad got the old laptop. 

So it`s Monday again, and it is the first day that I actually got to sleep for more than three hours. My sister came on Friday and she left yesterday. On Friday we went out at this local bar and that resulted in her losing a sock, How? I have no clue! On Saturday we saw Sahara Hotnight, I am not really a fan, but my sister loves them. But they were actually okay! And on Sunday, the day that I was meant to nurse my hangover, I had to go to the airport which is about an hour from us. 

Anyway, I woke up about two hours ago and now I am going to go and eat.

Cheers :)

All my bags are packed I'm ready to go...

 
They really are packed. I am leaving on Sunday very early, I am going on a holiday. Going where the sun shines and the sky is blue. Yeah for me! I will be gone about two weeks. Anyway have to go and see if I forgot something (witch I probably have) and then I am going to get some sleep.

 

Adios

 

 

 

So I guess it’s true when they say that bad things come in three. Because these past few weeks prove that. First it started with a bit of a throat ache, and then slowly followed a headache and then I was sneezing, coughing, throwing up and in the end left with a horrible flu. I felt like dying. After that when I was just about recovering, I got another surprise. This gross thing started break out on me lips, till my whole mouth was covered with it. I have no idée what it is, but it hurts like hell and looks disgusting. And even now I still have it, makes me look like a bloody clown. And then of course today while I was trying to make something to eat I burn my freaking hand. And now three of my freaking fingers are burned.

 

I know that I am very clumsy and REALLY have bad luck. But this is pushing it, I mean come on GIVE ME A BREAK!

 

 

 

…….That’s it I jumping out the freaking window….

Wow…it’s been a long time since I updated. Too much going on I guess, to find the time to write anything at all. Well let’s see, Christmas and New Years has already been. The were actually really fun. My sister decided to spend the holidays with us, so that was great. I actually went out and partied with my sister, which was surprisingly fun. What was not fun was having to share my room with her, (she thought it would be fun if we shared instead of her sleeping in her old room), I ended up throwing her out of my room and really not speaking to her for four days. But we made up before she had to leave.

 

Dad’s still on “let’s buy things we don’t need and forget about them” thing. He bought a new TV, so now we have six. And now he is planning on buying another TV for me, even though I hardly watch the one I have. Also he has decided too buy a new computer, (despite the fact that we already have three), even though he hardly uses the ones we have. I really don’t know what’s going on with this need to buy things. But it has to stop because not only is mum spitting fire but if this continues we’ll end up poor. And truthfully I like having a bed to sleep in and a roof over me head. Could be just me I guess...

 

 

-J-

Just got home, was out buying presents. Finally finished all my Christmas shopping, Yay for me. My sister is coming on Friday, she actually was here like two weeks ago.  She’s thinking about moving home again, that is if she can find an apartment but we’ll see who it goes. She meet a guy AGAIN, she’s actually meet him about five years ago. But when she was here she saw him again, and it was lust at second sight. He seems like a nice guy, but they all do when you first meet them. I do really hope that it works out and doesn’t turn into another disaster, for both our sakes.

 

Anyway, dads still on his “lets buy things we don’t need and forget about them” thing. He now has his sights set on a new TV. Now that might have not been so bad, if we didn’t already have FIVE TVs. And the last one is nearly brand new too.

 

Well I think I hear mum calling, gotta run don’t want her voice to smash the windows. But then again that would make dad happy, cause then he would have something to buy…like he needs a reason.

 

-J-

Some kids where trick or treating and they knocked on our door. When my mother opened the door, they asked Trick or Treat? My mothers answer? No thank you! When I asked her why she just didn’t give them candy? Her answer? Oh I thought they where offering not asking! Yeah where I am from, we really are not that big on Halloween.

 

 

 

 

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It’s been a while since I updated. So here I am. Been a bit busy, but it looks like things are bit calmer now. Its six o’clock and its still a bit sunny though bit cold outside. Dad’s riding my bike to the store, (of course he didn’t ask if he could borrow it) and I just spoke with mom who still at work. So I am home alone, well Roxy`s still here, but that doesn’t count.

 

As things turned out, it was not true love for my sister and the new guy. This one lasted about a month, can’t really say I am surprised. Anyway she’s all panicking now, thinking that her clock is ticking. And that she has to find a husband and then have a bunch of kids. For god’s sake, she’s only 26 years old. What’s the freaking hurry? Anyway we’ll see how it goes.

 

Dad’s still on this weird “lets buy things we don’t need and then forget about them” thing. First he bought a Jacuzzi (that he used one time, ONE TIME and then forgot about it) then he bought a leather chair (that really doesn’t go with anything) then he bought a DVD camera (that’s now tucked away in the closed after using it once the first day). WHY? Nobody knows, and we are afraid to ask. Let’s hope that it will pass soon.

 

Anyway feeling a bit hungry and it seems dad’s home. Think I’ll go and bug him a bit.

 

Bye-Bye

 

 

-J-

 

 

 

 

 

So the weekend was packed. On Friday dad thought that it was a good idée to buy a Jacuzzi. Why? I have no clue. He just got it in his head one day that we should have a Jacuzzi, and then went out and bought one. It will probably be used once or twice and then just left forgotten about. That’s what usually happens, I mean that’s what happened with the training equipment, just sits there collecting dust.

 

Saturday was family day. Witch meant that I had to spend my day with my parents, aunts, uncles and little annoying cousins. About an hour into dinner, I thought that I was going to shoot myself. My family is usually normal (well as normal my family could be) during the day, but then something happens when dinner gets closer. It’s like you enter a twilight zone, everywhere you turn there’s someone with a knife, and beady little hungry eyes. I admit it has me freaking scared, and I usually tend not to make a grab for any of the food before anyone else. I just don’t think it’s worth losing a limb for, no matter how good the food is.

 

Sunday was spent doing absolutely nothing, witch I am thankful for. And now it’s Monday yet again. And new stuff to look forward to. And right now I am going for a ride, hey its better then doing nothing.

 

-J-

This is what happens when I am bored....

 

So its dads birthday today, and thank god that I already bought him his preset weeks ago. Otherwise I may have not remembered. He as usually liked it, and was rather cheerful…well as cheerful as my dad can be.

My sister could not make it, since she was working and plus she lives like five hours away. So it’s really not that easy to pop by for a day or two. Don’t know if she called or not, but wouldn’t be surprised if she didn’t. She really is forgetful.

 

I kind of miss her, haven’t seen her since we got home. I was thinking about visiting her, but she works Monday – Friday, so I’d barley see her. But I don’t know, maybe I’ll stop by for the weekend.  We’ll see how it goes.

 

Anyway, I am off to eat more cake…hope you all have fun…I sure bloody will...

 

 

 

Finally, my lap top has been fixed and returned to me where it belongs. It has been nearly three weeks that I had to give it up to be fixed. But now its back and working so far great. You had no idée how utterly boring it has been without it, I mean practically my whole life is on this lap top. I mean I had to socialise, and be out in the fresh air.

 

I know I sound insane (could be because I am) but I am so happy and yes very giddy. I am giddy…I have never in my life been giddy, but right know I am and I DON’T CARE!

 

 

I have been up the entire night, haven’t slept a wink. Gee do I feel rested….or not. My lap top has been acting up again, did you now that I had to spend the entire day without my lap top. I couldn’t do anything, and I have come to realized that I may have a little…very tiny addiction to my lap top.  Since I was basically climbing on walls and driving everyone insane around me. So yeah…need a bit of help in that department.

 

Anyway looks like the problem can’t be fixed. Dad was talking about buying a new lap top, I think it’s so stupid…I mean the lap top that I have now is barley two years old. But will see how that goes, and hopefully it will be okay.

 

Think I am going to go and try to get some sleep…

 

 

- J -

 So it seems that my sister has fallen in love…again. And I am keeping my fingers, legs and arms crossed that it will last. Given that her last two relationships were a bust.   I``ve meet him, seems like a nice guy, but the last two seemed like nice guys too. So you never know. But I can’t help but feel that he really isn’t her type. He seems like a calm and mellow type of guy, while my sister has a really hot temper and is a bit more ah…what’s the word I am looking for…oh yeah INSANE! But maybe she needs this type of guy, maybe he’s the one for her. You never know, it could be true. Well we’ll see how it goes. Hopefully it will all turn out okay.

 

My dad thought it was a good idée to talk on the phone right outside my bedroom door. Of course I hear his voice while I was sleeping and it of course woke me up. When I asked why he felt the need to speak outside my bedroom, he told me that he thought that it was time that I woke up. So yeah my family is insane, thank god that mom was at work because her voice I just couldn’t handle that early in the morning.

 

Anyway I am going out for a walk, see if there’s anything outside to do. Maybe I’ll find a trunk full of gold, and then I could buy myself a castle, I always wanted a castle. Yeah I know I am insane too. But come on, my world is fun…come join me…you know you want to…

 

 

- J -

   

_{"Love. How it toys with us,
makes utter fools of us.
Flogs, whips and spanks us.
Listen to the voices of the unloved
as they surge and retreat in the night.
Whispered in empty rooms and lonely beds,
the hunger of love unattained,
rushing through our fingers,
unstoppable, fleeting, gone.
And yet, when we touch this love
 it burns us with its bright flame,
it punishes and consumes.
And yet we must have it.
It rules us.
Uses. Abuses. Misuses.
And yet, why do we always crawl back for more?"}

-Lucien LaCroix, Forever Knight

"And the wild regrets, and the bloody sweats

None knew so well as I:

For he who lives more lives than one

More deaths than one must die"

 
-  Oscar Wilde -

 

 

Good morning all!

Just woke up a while ago. I know, I know, who sleeps this late? Apparently people who don’t have a life. As in me! But it could be the fact that for the first time this week, I have been able to get a full nights sleep. And it feels GREAT! So its Saturday, things don’t usually happen on Saturdays. Sunday being the most boring day of the week, and Saturday coming in second. Rambling. I know…anyway off to take a shower, hope I don’t drown 



- J -

Hey! Back from holiday, from the beautiful Croatian and its been great :) I mean I thought that it was going to be so boring, with my parents and my big sis. But it was actually really fun. Fun in the sun, and swimming in the ocean, and going out every night for some more fun on the town. What more could you want? But even though it was cool, two weeks of the same thing tend to make me bored. Don’t know if it’s just me, but I was actually looking forward to going home. I missed my room and my things, but most of I really missed the weather. In Croatian it was really hot, you could barley sunbathe because it was that hot. But at home it’s nice and cool, and right now raining. Ah the joys of being home! 

Anyway schools out, and don’t know what I am planning to do now. I thought that I should take the year off and just to nothing, but now I realized that I may have not thought that thru. Because right now I am utterly bored. So what to do? Well that is the question of the day. Honestly? I have no idée, but I``ll get back to you when I do.

Well that’s all for today, I think I``ll go and hide under the covers now. Who knows maybe I``ll fall asleep and when I wake I ``ll know the perfect thing for me to do. But then again maybe I’ll grow a tail too….



- J -

Hey! Back from holiday, from the beautiful Croatian and its been great :) I mean I thought that it was going to be so boring, with my parents and my big sis. But it was actually really fun. Fun in the sun, and swimming in the ocean, and going out every night for some more fun on the town. What more could you want? But even though it was cool, two weeks of the same thing tend to make me bored. Don’t know if it’s just me, but I was actually looking forward to going home. I missed my room and my things, but most of I really missed the weather. In Croatian it was really hot, you could barley sunbathe because it was that hot. But at home it’s nice and cool, and right now raining. Ah the joys of being home! 

Anyway schools out, and don’t know what I am planning to do now. I thought that I should take the year off and just to nothing, but now I realized that I may have not thought that thru. Because right now I am utterly bored. So what to do? Well that is the question of the day. Honestly? I have no idée, but I``ll get back to you when I do.

Well that’s all for today, I think I``ll go and hide under the covers now. Who knows maybe I``ll fall asleep and when I wake I ``ll know the perfect thing for me to do. But then again maybe I’ll grow a tail too….



- J -